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I know I'm about to approach the 50 lb lost mark, but while I want to celebrate that milestone, I don't want to make it into a big deal. Not right now. I've struggled for the last several weeks and am hopefully just now coming out of it, so celebrating so soon feels a little premature.
Instead, a while back I set some goals for me to reach by my 35th birthday on 3 June.
- have lost 60 lbs total (weight: 267)
- be able to run 30 minutes consecutively (approx 2.5 miles - but time is more important than distance)
- be able to swim 1 mile
At the moment, swimming 1 mile is totally achievable. It might take me a while, but I know I can do that one now that my form, breathing and stamina in the water are so much better. So, I'll just need to time myself on it so that I know what my base time is and work to improve on that in the future.
Reaching the 60 lbs lost is also do-able provided I have no more stalls, and I have to admit that scares me a bit. After feeling like I've been starting and stalling over the last 6-8 weeks, I'm lacking in a bit of confidence. But then I say to myself, "There's no reason you can't do this, Jayme! You've got 6 weeks to lose 11.4 pounds. With your increased ability in the gym (yay protein!) and summer coming on, you can totally do that!" And so I'll do the best I can and see where it gets me. Besides, I was struck by something Mary at a small loss has decided to do as she gets closer to reaching a huge milestone: she's putting away her scale. Rather than being anxious and watching every small step toward (or away) from that goal, she'd rather put the numbers of the scale away and coast toward the goal. In the same way, I don't want to focus on the 50 lb lost. I don't want to be lulled into a sense that I have arrived, I want to strive for something beyond. Somewhere in that process, I will have reached 1/3 lost toward my goal weight. And when my birthday rolls around, there'll be lots to celebrate!
The running goal is something I'm not sure about. I think the time has come to start running again. And the fear I have about it is of the unknown; since I haven't run in a while and have been doing the elliptical instead, I just don't know what I can do anymore. It's silly - but I'm a little afraid to try for fear that what little capacity I had (7 minutes) has diminished. But I won't know until I try, eh? I may be able to knock it out of the park and all of this fear is for nothing. But I don't know. So we'll see how I do in the coming weeks and I'll let you know. And yet, somewhere in all that, if I succeed, not only will I be able to run 1 mile but hopefully up to 2.5 miles. Those would be milestones in and of themselves.
So here's to goals and the next 6 weeks!!
What short-term goals are you working towards right now?