While this may be a process of letting go rather than a one-off event, I feel like I let go of the fat version of me this year. Fat Jayme is still there definitely, but I let go of my need for her, or perhaps it is better said that I let go of particular needs that she fulfilled – the need to keep people distant, the need to ensure my own safety, the need sit on the sidelines and not draw attention – and the some of the shame that accompanied it all.
I’m still an introvert, so fundamentally I don’t think I have changed, yet somewhere over the course of the summer of 2010, I let go of that part of me that I no longer wanted to be. And while I’m sure the shame is still there lurking in some inner recesses, but it’s not as present in everyday life these days.
December 6 - Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?
|the early stages of my first quilt|
What do I need to do to make it happen? Buy some batting, carve out some time and get on with it.