Friday, December 10, 2010

#Reverb10 catch-up: Let Go & Make

December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

While this may be a process of letting go rather than a one-off event, I feel like I let go of the fat version of me this year.  Fat Jayme is still there definitely, but I let go of my need for her, or perhaps it is better said that I let go of particular needs that she fulfilled – the need to keep people distant, the need to ensure my own safety, the need sit on the sidelines and not draw attention – and the some of the shame that accompanied it all.

I’m still an introvert, so fundamentally I don’t think I have changed, yet somewhere over the course of the summer of 2010, I let go of that part of me that I no longer wanted to be.  And while I’m sure the shame is still there lurking in some inner recesses, but it’s not as present in everyday life these days. 

December 6 - Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

the early stages of my first quilt
I don’t spend nearly enough time making stuff as I should.  I enjoy the creative process, but unlike some of my very gifted friends, I don’t usually make the time.  The last big project I had was a quilt, which I’ve been working on for almost 2 years now.  The top is mostly done and I’m at a standstill because I have not bought the filling to put everything together and finish it.  I have a newer, yet similar, project going at the moment, but again, find myself wondering if I’ll finish it for the same reasons.

What do I need to do to make it happen?  Buy some batting, carve out some time and get on with it.

1 comment:

  1. Hi, Jayme! Sounds like you've been brave in your letting go this year and as for your quilt...I hope you are able to make the time to finish it!