I think it's been a lesson being learned for several years now, but what stands out to me right now is a stronger understanding of my accomplishments and greater confidence in my ability to see things through, which is timely since I've got a lot to accomplish and see through this coming year.
This lesson has come by two different ways/means that have been given a lot of attention here. The first is the job search. Despite the occasional paralyzing bouts of doubt and fear, starting the job hunt and actively thinking about what I'm qualified to do has been a good exercise for me in that it has confirmed choices I've made, my skills and abilities, and what I've done in order to prepare myself for the future. I'm satisfied with what I've chosen to do and I'm more confident in the experiences I've had that have prepared me thus far.
The second is the weight-loss journey. I've got a ways to go and I know there's more challenges and struggles ahead. But for years, I have struggled with my weight and my desire to lose it versus my desire to hide behind it. I've been surprised to learn that once I made the decision that I didn't need it anymore, losing has been much easier than I anticipated it would be. Don't hear me saying that I've got this licked because I know I don't....but I am still shocked most days that my resolve toward this losing weight business feels different than times past. Even the bad days, in retrospect, really haven't been that bad considering what I anticipated having to face. I've realized that in this journey (compared to other times) there's no "if I can lose this weight, I'll....", there's no contingency plan......instead, it's "when I get to ____ lbs..." and dealing with it one day at a time with full knowledge that it'll happen. I will get there.
Dec. 18: Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn't go for it?
I started running in 2010. I had tried a couple times in the past, but never really got past the first day. But in September 2010, I started the C25K training program. Now it's December and I'm still on Week 3, but I am running. A few minutes at a time, but I am running. That makes me happy and I try to remind myself of that when I get frustrated about my slow progress.
What would I like to try in 2011? I'd like to run a 5K. I have no idea where and when, but it is on my radar. There may be one in May 2011 here in Belfast, so that might be a possibility. But regardless of when it'll be, I want to try to do that - something I've never done before.